I said it like a prayer,

Like something to be worshiped,

To be loved, to be feared, to be exalted.


I told it I would listen

I would be obedient,

I would allow for all it had planned.


I asked it to be kind,

To be benevolent,

To not hit with a closed fist. 


But when it did come to hurt me,

when it came with a lashing tongue 

And knuckles made of steel,

I asked that it do so with care.

That it explain all the reasons

why I deserved it,

and all the reasons

why I should still stay.


And I believed it.