I have always been told that biting my nails Is a bad habit.
It’s bad for my teeth.
It’s bad for my fingers.
It’s bad for my gut.
I wonder, then, what I can replace this terrible practice with instead.
What new quirk can I plant in the place of my nail-biting that will erase the gnawing feeling of anxiety building up in my stomach?
Tell me what practice is remedy for the burdens eating away at my days.
Who do I go to for a bite of sweet relief?
No savory solutions answer my call.
Instead, the bitter truth rests under my tongue, a child hiding from the monsters simmering beneath her bed.
Any possibility of reprieve melts away like butter under the heat of my angst.
I think, my nails can handle a few more chomps before chaos consumes me whole.
I console myself, promising my nails bite-sized rewards for all their selfless sacrifices. Perhaps, I will get a manicure soon enough.
For now, they remain delicious: the taste of my sanity.