Are you there in the darkest of shadows?

Watching me? 

Does it bring you pleasure? 

Excite you? 

Or maybe it frustrates you. 

Are you always there? 

In a black cap? 

Sunglasses? 

Jotting down what I do, how I do it,

Who I am with, and why.

Are you there when I eat? 

Breakfast: Oatmeal. 

Lunch: A sandwich. 

Dinner: Takeout.  

I love her in blue.

Are you there when I walk? 

Turns left on 5th Av.

Straight for 3 blocks. 

Stopped to tie shoes.  

I love when she wears her hair curly.

Are you there when I sleep? 

11:45 p.m: Bedtime. 

12:23 a.m: She tosses and turns.  

1:07 a.m: She wakes up to pee. 

She’s beautiful when she dreams. 

Are you always there? 

Hello? 

Are you there? 

ARE YOU THERE? 

Please, please don’t be there anymore.