Jana Taoube

forgive me father for I have sinned
will my hands be chained 
my thumbs detached 
Their hearts only relaxed?

If I sin because I cannot help it
will the ghouls come to take my soul
Am I a lost cause?

forgive me father for I have sinned 
questioned the mother
never even saw the brother
& yet I was the one chased.

If I sin to save another
will the devil be smiling in the fire 
Am I not to be forgiven?

Dear father, I am shaken.
For they have deemed it all 
Immorally moral.

My emotions only snore
My mind in overdrive
My arms barely survived
the robed man promised 
They will come for me.

The devil will take a piss on your pillowcase
And tear your fingernails
Rip you apart
And your voice will only echo in silent chambers.

Dear father, I have read the real one’s scripture
He said he was alone
Solitude and known 
He sits on a throne.

They have deemed me to hell 
Never thinking they have claimed the homes there already
They don’t think of the hair they pulled
They don’t think of the blood they spilled
They don’t think of the black flags they chilled

Father forgive me for I have sinned
Only because I believed for one second
they were more powerful than he

& I say forevermore
I shall never beg forgiveness from mere mortals 
fools who don’t know Japan from Iran
& bigger fools who don’t see color

& I say forever adieu 
No longer will I read their minds of filth and horror
I have chosen to live alone
With he 
only. 

-jt