When many hear the word “fangirl,” they cringe at the sound of it; they automatically think “crazy-obsessed-girl who’s crazy about some hot guy.” While this may be true for some “fangirls,” it is certainly not true for all of them.
As many of you may know, I very much fall into the category of being a fangirl. If you walk into my room, it’s like entering the MoCH (Museum of Corey Haim). Seriously.
Yes, my walls are shamelessly suffocated with photos of him, I can practically recognize his voice before he even starts speaking, I force myself to stay awake to watch his movies (even though I have seen them several times before), I can distinguish the years with which hairstyle he had (1989- black hair, 1990- frosted tips. 1991- frosted tips, but a bit longer), I literally stop breathing when I am moved by his beauty (the way he blinks really takes my breath away), I was featured in a Buzzfeed article for “stanning” him so hard, and before I go on and embarrass myself even more, I think you get the picture.
So yeah, I am completely aware that the love I have for Corey Haim is quite out of the ordinary. I understand that it is fairly easy for others to call me obsessed. However, though I completely disagree that I am obsessed, I kind of wish people would sit and think, why is she so passionate about this one person.
Personally speaking, the reason why I am enthusiastic about my love for Corey Haim is, well, simply said the guy helped me through a lot. Now I know what you’re thinking, how is that even possible, he’s not even alive?
Well, it’s very possible. I am no stranger to self-esteem issues and anxiety. Thankfully, I have Corey Haim as an outlet to help me cope with them. Although I still struggle with those issues to this day, I have been able to put them under my control way better than the past, all thank you to Corey Haim. His films are what got me through the many lonely days of my freshman year of high school. The positive attitude he had, and the encouraging words he spoke give me the strength to get back up when I feel knocked down.
He doesn’t only fill my gloomy days with sunlight, but he also inspires me. He inspires me to be myself, to appreciate the small things in life, to be passionate, to make others smile, and to make a difference in this world with positivity and kindness—just like he did. Somehow, he managed to have a huge impact on the person that I am.
So is my love for Corey Haim out there?
Totally not.
However, underneath my enthusiasm lies something much deeper. I am not the only one who feels this way about the person they idolize. A lot of the time, people cling on to a certain show, movie, band, actor, etc. because it is what helped them get through the tough times. You may not be able to understand why or how someone could feel a certain way about something, but you can simply try to respect it. To me, being a fangirl simply means being extremely grateful for someone who helped you get through a lot. So the next time you see someone in a chokehold of enthrallment over a celebrity, ask them why they are so passionate before you make any judgments.
If you are someone who is as emotionally invested in someone or something as I am, then take pride in it. Do what makes YOUR soul shine and never worry about what others think. Your love is always valid.
– Sam
The Junction Journal 