I made a vow to become healthy again.I have neglected myself because, you know, life. However I want to become better and do better. I restart my gym sessions today after being out for over a month (Not looking forward to the post-workout body aches), did some grocery shopping so I will start cooking my meals again and, I have started to perform once again. With performance, it took me to a place of revisiting my old poems and I have been reading these pieces of a young 19 going on 20 year old version of myself to my current lens. Some of the poems, I wanted to edit to present on stage and others, I will bury them within my grave to never see the light of day. This particular poem however, took me back to a time when I wanted to make my poems personal.

The summer 0f 2014; a fast paced romance between my best friend and I that died as quickly as it manifested.

Death of A Love Poem

 

Snowflakes descending on tombstones

A winter’s blanket wrapping the goose bump corpse of memories

Scattered ashes of pages dancing an ember’s song

Upon a grave where a rose once bloomed

 

My love,

Your obituary written on your withered petals

Cursive script of a wind’s tear

A page

A poem

An open letter

To deserve something we can’t have

But want to claim something already branded

To rob another’s heart in order for yours to beat

 

I find it funny how a winter’s cloak can keep a cemetery warm

But to the living, bone chilling images of your lips

Kisses to gospels singing

Hymns  

Praying to Him while singing

Made a sinner of you on a loveseat

Yet, never once defiling your temple

 

Your name still sung in falsetto pitch

A raspy whisper

Faded but restored over lost conversations

“Your mind is a beautiful place to sleep in”

And what a lovely bed you have become

Lying leisurely on the mattress of your tongue

To dream dreams only you can tell me

My arms becoming the equator to your hips

To be glad that you’re in my world

I found you…

Found you…

Found you…

My blessing

 

So on this day

In front of your grave

I scatter you soul over your body

Embers burning crisply over the building snow

My love, you’ll always be in the torture stake hung pendulum

That beats behind my sternum,

After all, you designed it to be this way

As a reminder for me

To move on and to let you go

Just know I loved you

May you Rest In Peace…