Fuck you Change

Fuck you change!

You do such irreparable damage to those suckers who are unlucky enough to be in your existence.

Guess what?

This time, that sucker is me.

Yep, that’s me! *Raven’s Voice*

You fucking take everything that I have and bury me with it.

You break me and take my mind, body and soul in tow.

You make me feel like a vulnerable, open target.

My life was great before I met you,

Yeah, I’m talking to you change!

Before you had to come and change everything.

Fuck you change!

Maybe I’m afraid that you’ll show everyone what a failure I am.

They will see that side of me that I wish no one ever saw.

The side of me that I fight to keep locked inside forever.

The side of me that makes him choose that bitch over me.

The side of me that makes people wish they never met me.

The side of me that completely negates when someone says, “Oh, just give her time, she’ll grow on you.”

The side of me that constantly leaves me on the outside looking in at pure happiness.

I am looking at MY happiness through a crack of a window because you came and took it all away from me!

The happiness that would keep my world whole.

The happiness that would ensure that I became more than a figment of my imagination.

The happiness that took me back to that time when he would say, “It’s not bye, it’s see you later.”

That “See you later” turned into “bye.”

Fuck you change!

This new life set up for me is supposed to be “happiness.”

Or whatever that means to some people.

My insides are welling up just thinking about what is yet to come.

Fuck you change!

Fuck you change!

Fuck you change!

– K. N.